I celebrated my last Mother’s Day as a mama of one, Emma’s mom. It’s a strange feeling. While I am fortunate and blessed to be carrying another child, I feel a tinge of sadness knowing I am no longer going to be just Emma’s mom. Being just Emma’s mom has been a big part of my identity for the past four and a half years. I’ve been told this feeling of sadness will come and go throughout my pregnancy. So I find comfort in everyone going through the same emotional rollercoaster ride about no longer being a mama of one. Still… I stare at my perfect little angel and I can’t believe, same time next year she will have to share me with another angel. Then baby T kicks in my tummy and I feel a ping of guilt for being sad about no longer being just Emma’s mom. Motherhood is such a beautiful journey yet its complexity feels infinite to me. In no way am I saying I’m not excited for future Mother’s Days with double the love I felt for the past four and a half years. But I did want to document my real feelings about this year being my last one as a mama of one. And I have to say, it was the best one thus far.
The evening before Mother’s Day, Em and I had a date night at home. After dinner, we played all her favorite board games then took a bath in my bath tub. It’s one of our favorite things to do! We ended the night having a slumber party in my room. We cuddled, talked, laughed and sang. She eventually fell asleep in my arms. It was one of the best nights I spent with Em. <3
The next day, Mother’s Day, started with sleeping in while Em and Steve made a strawberry cake from scratch with berries infused frosting. For my birthday a month ago, Steve made me a cake from a box because #quarantine and there wasn’t any pre-made cakes at the bakery. 😀 But he outdid himself for Mother’s Day because the cake he made from scratch was seriously legit. Now he is stuck making that same exact cake on the regular. Haha. Along with the cake was a sweet card Em wrote (with help from Steve) and hanging flowers for my front porch. He knew I wanted to get some for a while so it was the perfect Mother’s Day flowers. In the afternoon we went for a walk on a trail in my new kicks Steve got me as my Mother’s Day gift. Then we ended the day with a takeout dinner from one of our favorite places, Mediterranean Deli. What a day without having to do any wifey/mama duties. Don’t we wish every day was Mother’s Day? ;P
It was a perfect day spent with people I love. This quarantine business can be exhausting at times, but I’m glad for this opportunity to spend a lot of quality time as a family of three before Baby T joins the gang.
-m
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